Who the fuck still comes here? Why? I have my mind revolving around this girl and I cant get her picture out of my head, I cant draw all I can do is think of her yet she doesnt even seem to care. Could be she's secretly loving someone else, could be I'm just paranoid, either way I'm getting fed up with this so called life. I made a mistake of spending the night at someones house a few nights ago when I felt like commiting suicide so yea. Alot of crap went down then. I mean who cares if I'm still slicing and dicing? Nobody thats who. I remember when she found out I was doing that and she rubed her hand over them never taking her eyes away from mine and I could see a sadness dwelling beneath those emerald pools that was so deep I could have drowned in their splendor. I know that these words mean nothing to her because she never says theyre great or bad she just ignores them so they must be boring and bland. She probably doesnt believe me when I say I love her or that she doesnt feel it so she doesnt say it back. I suppose I'll make this my last journal post on Deviant art, maybe if I decide to draw something that doesnt suck because it turns out to have the same features as a girl I know and feel for, I'll post them but I doubt it. Anyways if you want to read any new blogs goto [link] and look at my blog sections otherwise this is just a waste of space. I suppose this is it, well if you read this babe I love you and always will, to everyone else, I'll catch ya on the flipside. I'm outiez *pulls out a knife*